Blog – Decoding Static

(un)becoming an imposter

Posted on 01/07/201913/09/2019 by Andy

The wearing of masks leaves scars. Scars, which I haven’t always allowed to heal. It is the daily picking of these scars, which, for me, defines being an imposter. The underlying uncomfortableness of inhabiting myself, physically, emotionally, mentally. At many times during my life so far, I have been disconnected, insecure and in conflict. Too […]

Visible, Visible

Posted on 26/03/201702/09/2019 by Andy

We can’t escape our lives. During my invisible grief it can feel as if I am not living, that I am just stuck and my life is waiting to start again. Partly because the grief can be a knockout punch and partly because I am not honouring my grief or myself. Instead I try to […]

Visible, Invisible

Posted on 26/03/201702/09/2019 by Andy

It was as if life continued around me, around us, but we were stuck in this no-children land, as if we had slipped into another world, fading. Daily, it felt like a fight to be, it became automatic just to function. I dragged myself out running, for peace, for anger, for something to do, to […]

Invisible, Invisible

Posted on 26/03/201702/09/2019 by Andy

On awakening to now, we are not only present with the good experiences, the happy times, but also the sad, the experiences that break your heart. I found myself asking ‘How can such sorrow come from such love?’

Invisible

Posted on 26/03/201702/09/2019 by Andy

I first started Decoding Static when I was working on a novel, with the working title, Deception. Deception is still important to me and the novel is still bubbling away inside of me. The current social political climate of false news, claims and propaganda hints at the relevance of Deception, more so the demand for […]

Living Room Stories : Swedish Living Room Story

Posted on 17/08/201208/05/2019 by Andy

A month or so ago I received an email from Tim Larsson about Living Room Stories. Tim wrote ‘I’m amazed I actually was able to get one at all. I love it, and it’s sweet and sad, hopeful but still sad. I could even relate to a few parts, and the stories awoke many feelings.’ Such feedback […]

Photo of trees and a gate post in the mist

Sharing

Posted on 15/06/201208/05/2019 by Andy

I recently read two posts by Dan Holloway, Turning Points and Action Points, where he shares his feelings and pain regarding his year so far and where this has left him creatively. What strikes me most about the posts is Dan’s openness, his willingness to lay himself bare. Dan writes about the struggles of finding a space to […]

words

Posted on 25/02/201103/04/2019 by Andy

I feel like I must write, say something. What I am sharing with you is an idea, a line from a short story I started yesterday lunch time when my mind was whirring with work and the self made stress of it all. I felt better afterwards. The story is provisionally titled I’m finished. In […]

Make Art For Peace One Day : White Trees

Posted on 21/09/201003/03/2019 by Andy

September 21st is the International Day of Peace. In 2001 the 192 member states of the United Nations unanimously adopted 21 September as an annual day of global ceasefire and non-violence. The story of Peace Day can be read at Peace One Day. On Facebook the Austin Experimental Artists have created the event Make Art For Peace […]

Autoplay

Posted on 07/05/200928/02/2019 by Andy

I feel like a man who doesn’t sleep,more like weeps in dreams.Strange scenes litter my mind,my eyes ache.Leaving my head heavy,like scrambled radio waves. I catch a news flash,I can’t quite rememberwhat is important.The needle is stuck,repeat, repeat.Another listen? I named my first blog Decoding Static, as well as my twitter account, because that is […]